Of malaise and persistence…

Things have been rougher than usual the last month. As  I compose this post  I find myself back in a state of relative peace. I’ve only regained my footing in the last five days. The Iron Maiden show gave me a much needed boost as the three weeks leading up to it were pure depressive hell.

I was fine at , say my job. That kept me plenty busy. It’s just the down time that’s been eating at me. I never know what in the hell to do with myself. I mean, I haven’t become a total house ape. I go for a good long bicycle ride fairly regularly and try to get out and do stuff with friends. It is difficult though with so many conflicting schedules and whatnot.

RA-wise  I’m continuing a trend for the better. I’ve been off the steroids for over two weeks and  I’m trying to keep it up. Since the methotrexate was raised I’ve noticed a reduction in  symptoms overall. Which is damn good because taking the stuff is harsh enough that I’d really feel cheated if it weren’t freaking effective. It plus the Enbrel seems like a pretty potent combination.  Last injection was a real Bear though. I think  I went too deep and muscled it. Most painful shot I’ve ever given myself. I started growl-screaming halfway through. My leg was sore at work all day 😦

Between RA and being Bipolar it kind of feels like  I never really get to relax. I mean, I shouldn’t make it sound like  I have it that bad. I’m still strong enough to work and  I’m going to try to make something of myself. If only  I could figure out what. I really have no idea what I’d be good at. Anyhow, the meds are doing me pretty well at present. The steroids were really throwing me off kilter for a while and  I’m happy to be off of them. 

Two days from today will make a month my Lover has been gone. Also, another month until he returns so yay for halfway there.I was hysterically depressed for the first three weeks but Iron Maiden plus time with my friends helped get my ass back among the living. It was an incredible experience. Obviously lots of tracks from The Book of Souls as it’s TBOS tour but also a ton of classics including:

Wrathchild, Children of the Damned, The Trooper, Powerslave, Fear of the Dark, Iron Maiden,  The Number of The Beast, Blood Brothers and Wasted Years.

Lots of fascinating people watching and my Buddy Justin came with me. His ticket was my birthday gift to him and we had an absolute blast. Went to a Killer Pizza place and had a little pre show meal then it was off to The Amalie Arena to see Metal’s Finest. They were top notch and sounded positively amazing. Pure professionals.

So yeah, I’m hanging in there. Got myself some great memories and my Holy Pilgrimage to see my backpatch band is complete. To anyone who may be reading, all I want for my birthday is an Iron Maiden T-shirt or two (available on the official Iron Maiden website)with North American tour dates on the back as  I was too strapped to buy one at the show 😉

Hey, don’t hate me for trying. I’m just a happy crazy person who just achieved a major Bucket List goal 🙂

That’s about all  I have for now except a photo from the Iron Maiden facebook page. My Buddy Justin and  I are in the upper midsection below the right spotlight. 

Until we meet again,

Thom

My Christmas Present to myself 

I finally printed and framed my two best Concert Photos,


 On the left: With Harald Oimoen from DRI last December. 

On the right : With George Fisher at a Paths of Possession Show in December of 2005.

It’s not a big present for me, but I like it 🙂

Have yourselves a Happy Holidays!

-Thom

Sewing once more 

I’ve already gotten a lot done on the new kutte. I’m going with an occult Psychedelic and/or Metal feel entirely in black and white.  Here’s a photo of where it’s at: 

I’ve not done anything on the front yet, but I think the back looks pretty killer so far. The Absu and The Devil’s Blood patches are embroidered whereas the Jex Thoth centerpiece is an old t-shirt that I sliced up and made into a patch of sorts.  I’m pleased with what I’ve done to it so far and am excited about the next phase of construction. 

I did put a pair of Thelema patches on the shoulders but aside from that all I’ve done is the back. I want to accrue at least twenty patches so I can really play around with some possible layouts.  Of course,  twenty is just the beginning.  My last project was half the surface area and used like fifty-seven patches. This has the potential to be a long and consuming project.  Whatevers,  I’m in it for the art. I’ve become a bit socially withdrawn lately. Not deliberately,  but friends and my schedules just haven’t been lining up recently.  This jacket project gives me something to exercise my brain and my hands. I try to take it easy on my hands but I also know a certain amount of work for them improves my overall dexterity. I’m having a far easier time than when I did my vest which is a testament to how much the Humira has improved things for me. 

I am really enjoying this project so far. I’ve gotten much quicker with my stitching and far better at undoing thread tangles with the gentle back and forthing of the line. Or whatever,  sewing is just something I get by at honestly.  My stitches hold, but they aren’t exactly pretty which is why I opted to use black thread this time and mostly hide the stitching. 

Anyhow,  now I need to go upload this to tshirtslayer.com (Berserker666). Having said that,  I wish you all a lovely day.  

-Thom

On 2015

     In the annals of Thom history this may well be remembered as the year that I (re)found myself. It in many ways has been a breakthrough year for me and I’m so floored by it that I’m choosing to blog about it before Christmas is wrapped up with.

Let us take a moment to see where I am with things:
OFF SSDI Completely. I owe them a bit for an overpayment but whatevs. Those are the breaks.

In love. This is a big one. During a production I was acting and stage managing for I fell for one of the actors I had previously worked with. Sparks flew and we just celebrated our first Christmas together under the same roof.  He fills my soul with mirth and my heart with unparalleled joy.

Re-ignited my passion for being a Metalhead and diversified somewhat as a listener. Saw three shows this year. One was a bunch of bands at the brass mug with the Koroidia guys playing and the other two were Napalm Death/ Voivod and DRI. In spite of wishing I made it to more, these three shows made my year. Particularly DRI, in no small part due to my buddy Damien and I getting to hang out with Harald Oimoen.

Speaking of whom, I just ordered his book ‘Murder in The Front Row’ which is all about the Bay area Thrash explosion. Words can not describe my excitement level. All I gotta do now is take it to the next DRI show and get it signed for the win.

As far as diversification of my listening pallette I’ve come to a far greater appreciation of stoner/sludge rock and psychedelic rock which utilizes more punkish touches and accents. Jex Thoth, I’m looking at you.

Anyhow, this year hasn’t been without angst or heartbreak, but it has been a pretty damned good year. I am feeling alive, rejuvenated and ready for war.

Happy Holidays to all!

Love-

Thom

I’m (somewhat) back!

I haven’t posted much of anything in a while. I realize that these dry spells probably make it difficult to maintain a decent amount of an audience. I’m often not sure why I blog, until I remember that it’s crucial to my overall thought organization \ analysis process. Also, I had a rough few months with forearm tendon and ligament issues from too much knife work.

However, it’s been a while and I have a decent amount stored up to share with my readers. I like WordPress because it is a great way for me to step outside of my own existence for a bit and crawl into the head of another.

I’m still brewing amazing kombucha, had a continuous brew going for some time now. I’m working but only part time as the wrist issues are not fully behind me. Things are lovely with my amazing boyfriend. We don’t have Christmas stockings for either of us but we do for our dog and two cats. How gay is that? 😉

I finally finished my battle vest after working on it for nearly a year. Finished it just in time to go see DRI last week. It was the show of a lifetime. Met Kurt Brecht and Harald Omioen. My Buddy Damien came with me to the show and bought me beer and we had a blast. I went in the pit for about a minute during Bleeding Money’s set and it was pure feral delight.

The highlight of the night was Damien and I hanging out front of the venue with DRI bassist Harald. He told us the story of his goofy dance bomb on Watain’s stage at the Maryland Death Fest. We talked Metal and got a few awesome pictures of the DRI gents we met. Very nice people and they absolutely destroyed the place with their live show. Pure professionals, those guys.

Aside from that, just keeping my head above water and getting ready for Christmas. Shannon and I had a blast decorating our tree together for our first holiday season as a couple.  My blood pressure was a bit high from being on adderall so I got put on an ACE inhibitor and got it under control and switched to Ritalin. Oddly enough, even though I hated it as a kid it seems to be a better fit than the adderall. Fancy that.

That’s about all for now. Here’s a few photos of the vest and from the show.

Enjoy!

Love,
Thom

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