Back at my old job on the beach. My brief foray into other employment was lousy and fairly non-lucrative. I’m just lucky I texted my old boss when I did. This kid at my work was my main competitor for bussing shifts and he serves now. I just happened to come back to my beach job just in time to swiftly grab the lion’s share of the daytime shifts. Honestly that’s the only reason I left in the first place was that I wasn’t making the money. I had a bit of a hypomanic depressive episode while I was away from the beach and I’m glad to be back up to par.
I’m not sure what is happening with Humira still save for it being in the appeal stage. I’m going to keep getting sample pens until I get cut off because why not? I’m doing my injection some time tomorrow afternoon and I will see what my Rheumatologist might know about this in a few weeks.
My pain level has been relatively low since starting the Humira. Some flaring up day to day is perfectly normal as my hands are crazy busy all day, but the pain hasn’t been lingering after work much lately. The combination of Arava and Humira is effective enough that I haven’t been taking much else for a while.
As far as morning stiffness it’s usually fairly brief but intense. I’m doing alright as far as my hands, but my feet have been giving me some hell lately. My metatarsals in both ankles have been pretty sore, especially when I climb stairs or walk uphill. People think RA is all about the hands but it has effects on the entire body including the feet.
I’m bumming a ride to my Rheumatologist’s office tomorrow from my best friend Matt. I have not seen a whole lot of him lately and am looking forward to catching up with him. Nothing says ‘Let’s Hang out ‘ like picking up a round of injectable biotechnology. Whatever. I laughed.
Aside from that, I’m calm lately. Calmer than I’ve been in ages. Things are relatively good right now. I don’t miss Facebook, that’s for sure. I no longer care about all the fuss. I have my books, my music, my sewing and some freaking peace of mind. Sweet, that.
I have the next two days to do whatever the hell my heart desires. I mean, I gotta do up my shot but that’s quick and easy. I think I’m going to surprise my Man with some sort of tasteful dinner. Yes, we eat more than tacos and burritos and quesadillas. Honest. I’m thinking maybe a really killer stir-fry. I’m doing this. Oh ja.
Until we meet again,
I’m trying to become more prolific with this blog. My small cult of readers seem to somewhat enjoy it and it gives me a medium with which I can observe my life and thoughts as if I were an outsider. I’m hoping to eventually start doing some creative writing as well. I’m something of a poet at times but the inspiration rarely strikes me. I like words. They put thoughts into practice and ascribe meaning to the seemingly mundane.
I plan to do a post one day strictly about all the concerts I’ve been to and the related awesome memories. Perhaps I could do a post about things I enjoy cooking. I’m just trying to think of ways in which I could diversify my content a bit.
I’m trying to avoid the usual stream of consciousness stuff that I so frequently resort to. I’m not trying to play to an audience as much as I’m simply growing bored with same old rundown and generalized updates. I’m well aware that my life really is not THAT fascinating.
As unfocused as this particular post is, I feel it’s important to have a brainstorming session of sorts with myself. I’m not certain what my strong points as a writer really are. I’d like to think I have a few, but honestly I’m far too critical of my own work most of the time. I’m not above taking some feedback from my readers as long as it’s understood that I’m not really doing this for you.
I have a few upcoming events which should give me some fresh subject matter to ruminate upon. Next Sunday I’m going to see the Summer Slaughter tour with Cannibal Corpse, Nile, Suffocation and many other bands. If nothing else I’ll have lots of fun to gush about. I’m going to Alaska in a month and am quite excited about it as well. It’ll be farther than I’ve ever been from home and I plan on taking lots of pictures and being outdoorsy as all hell. I’m a bit nervous about traveling that far but it’s an adventure not to be missed.
Some of my posting will still consist of Mental and Physical health updates. Some of my friends read this blog and it’s an easy way to keep my dear ones in the loop. I’m dealing with two chronic illnesses and WordPress is a wonderfully supportive environment for those like myself. Admittedly, I need to start using the reader feature more and be more interactive with other bloggers. I’m slacking with keeping up with the blogs I like reading and for that you all have my profuse apologies. I’m trying to branch out a little without getting sidetracked from the original purpose of this blog. Above all it’s a place where I can be myself.
For those who read and get something out of it I extend my thanks. Thanks for making this more than just a space for me to bitch. As I said, I do this mostly for myself but it blows my mind how many subscribers I have now. Not bad for what was originally intended to be a ‘Hide out from my family and complain about my issues’ blog. I’m glad I relaxed and went public with it. My family doesn’t always understand me and I don’t always get them, but I love them dearly and I’m glad they more or less accept me and my various quirks.
So yeah, that’s about where I’m at with the ol’ Planet Berserk. Thanks for reading and being a part of this strange exercise in documenting my thoughts.