I’m plugging away with getting my life in order. Caught up on bills. Credit card nearly fully paid off. This Tuesday will make thirty days clean, which is something I didn’t believe that I could do for the longest time. Aside from that I’m just doing my thing, sewing some new stuff to my vest later today and doing some NA literature reading daily.
My program is working fairly well, though I’m still new to this constructively dealing with my problems thing. My emotional state has been highly variable as well as my health. The arthritis in my hands as well as my tendonitis have both been getting more severe and getting through a day of work is getting steadily more taxing. Due to hypertension coming back I’ve had to give up my ADHD medication. It’s whatever. I’m choosing to look at it as one less thing to have to cough up money for. I could stay the course but my blood pressure meds would be totally pointless and I don’t want to have a fucking heart attack so I just decided to let it go and deal with the fog as well as I can.
Back to the issue of my hands, I have to go to a Rheumatologist soon. My pain is getting worse and I’ve developed nodules on the knuckles of both hands. I’m so stiff in the mornings some days that I can barely pour a cup of coffee. Whatever happens I’ll deal with. My Doctor seems to think it may be something more serious than simple osteoarthritis hence visiting the specialist soon.
Aside from that, I’ve been my usual beaten down but determined self. I am salvaging the wreckage of my life, making new friends and doing the best I can.
Not much else I can do, methinks.